TUESDAY, 14th October 2008

Today is Tuesday. It’s a long day for me as I have been very hard trying to coordinate both hands with musical piece given by the Professor. It was last week on my 1st day of his lesson when he gave me bundle of work. I was quite shock when he gave me scales of C Major, G, D, A, E for me to practice in last than a week. Pwehhh… Not only that, I got Broken Chords, Arpeggios, Hannon fingering ex and musical piece.

I rang NONA after she SMS me that morning once I arrived in my musical Cell. She was asking where was the workshop that I mentioned before. It was my Pump Break of my car that needed to be repaired asap and hopefully she found it.

I could manage to sort out my scales and others except for my musical piece called ‘GAVOT’. I felt that I have used up all my brain today. Every Tuesday would be my lesson with Professor as well as Instructor. That made me more into pressure and too bad I have to keep my Cornet away for a while…

I started my Piano lesson with instructor today in the morning and she let me play all the work given. That was when I felt that my brain was about to burst and it was f*#@ing nail! Again it was that musical piece that shot me in the head. GAVOT oh GAVOT..My lesson with professor was postponed to tomorrow.

I felt time passed so quickly that I really made my time the whole morning on that Piano. When the buigler blew that buigle for lunch break, I quickly walked towards the Wardroom for Lunch. Even 1 hr and 15 minutes of lunch break flies in a sec. I wanted a fresh air for a while and I knew I would gradually progress in my Piano. It was busy during lunch and I really had no mood talking with others as I was mentally tired. I didn’t remember what I had for lunch.

I rang Mum but I couldn’t get her then I phoned BB and it was a relieve talking to BB as I missed home so much and I guess it’s been a while now not talking in my language. Ngalih ku wah cakap urang puteh ganya ahh… tapi inda ulah wah,, nada dangan ku sini..

It was only yesterday when this Orang Puteh greeted me, ”Selamat Malam, Apa Khabar?” I was shocked until I realized he is a Dentist who served in Brunei before. Cali jua tu…… inda disangka2 jauh sudah ku tu ah, ada jua urang kan cakap melayu atu….

I hope BB is now enjoying reading my blog updating my life. But hey… Inda jua adil tu…. Why can’t it be vise versa. Whose going to update me life in Brunei? To BB, solve this matter, and also to NONA and Nabilah…. Pls stay online all the time.

Back to my story as I have said it was along day today. I was late for my afternoon class or maybe time was so short for lunch break. Malas tah ku ingau, gagas ku tarus bah ulehnya. Baru jua ku becerita sama Dentist yg cakap melayu tadi time minum Coffee… skali ku liat jam ah, 1315H. I had to rush for my Zuhur prayer for a while and walked 8 minutes to school. Again I faced my Piano and practiced that music piece again and again and again. I was so optimistic and really forced my self and I guess it paid off at the end and felt like magic when I progressed tremendously… Sakit kepala ku tarus ehh.. Kepisan. Tau2, abis time keraja.. wow, capat jua masa ah bejalan.

Kadang 2 when I think about it, my life is so full and kadang2 boring jua sal routine wah. I know what is going to happen everyday. So sometimes I need to alter a little bit to avoid boredom. Even after I realized time was over that day, I knew that I would be going home, have dinner, log in internet then off to bed ready for tomorrow.

Once I got into my room, I prayed Asar and all in a sudden Almarhumah Ngah Amit was in my head. I was so lesu, ngalih inda bermaya and mentally exhausted. Bukan lagi sujud, ampai2 ku atas tikar sembayang tebangang. Of course it was after my Asar prayer as I coiled up on my mat thinking of her. It was not long ago when I remembered Nabilah phone me up one day, “Bang Redzky, Ngah Amit meninggal”. It shocked me. I was thinking deeply and tears run down my eyes. I was quite emotional and how lucky she was when she passed away in a last 10 Ramadhan. I wonder when is my turn? Sedih ku nyamu….

While waiting for Maghrib, I got up from my mat and moved to my bed. I cried thinking of her and I guess apart form her, I really missed home. There is always this feeling that I felt I am lucky to be here studying music in England at one of the prestige School of Music for 2 years. I remember paying $80 per month just to attend my 45 minute Piano Class in Brunei and I stopped for a while because I just couldn’t afford it. Now, I am facing my Piano everyday from morning to Friday looked after by Professor and Instructor here in England. Syukur Alhamdulilah, life has getting better now. I feel like a dream come true and I just can’t believe it sometimes. I just love studying music here with friendly colleagues, staying in a Victorian accommodation with great food. I have my own time here to manage particularly in Solitude and I like that.

I don’t know what I am talking about with all the subjects jumbled up… Last Night, I was watching TV in one of the Victorian room alone. I felt like being in a Buckingham Palace. Exaggerating huh! It was my 1st time watching TV here as I am not a TV person but it was good sitting on a comfortable sofa all alone watching English TV. Now I realized that I have the luxurious but have no friends. I guess I needed somebody to talk to.

I just downloaded my favourite song called ‘Kau Tetap Milikku’ from The Seed featuring Maria. Nice…. Recalling memories. Siuk ehhh… I hope NABILAH is burning her midnight oil now preparing for her O Level exam. Don’t be playful, time to concentrate, get focus and score on your result. Insyaalah I will always pray for you success. You can do it Nabilah, make our family proud. Good Luck!